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Oct. 9th, 2003 | 02:54 am
mood: what do you think my mood is?

i thought i would post to say that i am doing okay, but then i would really be lying. seeing her and not being able to talk to her or listen to her or even acknowledge her... hurts so fucking much.

step one, stop crying over her.
step two, ah.. who the fuck am i kidding. i can't even make it past step 1.

anyway, i guess on a better note.. i ran into an old college friend tonight. it was good seeing kyle again. sadly though, i spent 90% of my conversation time with him... talking about her. surprise suprise.

i hate that i still love her and she doesn't give a shit about me.


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My two cents

from: shellzbellz25
date: Oct. 12th, 2003 08:16 pm (UTC)

Well.. this is the first time I have read your entries. I must say you seem like a kind, heartfelt person. On the subject of your ex... Sometimes it's hard to let things go, especially when you put so much of your time, effort, and yourself into someone. Yet sometimes that's what you really need to do to move on. I could sit here and tell you that it's all going to be alright and fill your head with lots of nonsense, but I won't. It hurts. It will probably hurt for a while. You will probably compare every girl you meet to her for a long time to come, but there is a silver lining. It's an experience in your life. Experiences like these shape a person. They help you learn and grow as a human being with feelings and emotions. Maybe it's better that you don't see her just yet because you guys will only end up being a crutch for eachother, a security blanket if you will. You need to stand on your own two feet, and figure out how you can make yourself happy. =)


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Re: My two cents

from: visions
date: Oct. 13th, 2003 08:24 pm (UTC)

i am happy as myself... but i was happier with her. i wanted to spend the rest of my life with her... nothing can make someone happier than that.

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