now, i am trying to improve myself so that not only can i say there is a difference, but that i can show it as well. mentally, physically, and emotionally.
i want things to not only be perfect, but stay perfect. while i know that i can never attain any sort of perfection, i want to be perfect for us... not just me and not just her.
i want to be what i have always told her i wanted to be for her. even if she doesnt want me back. i need to do it.