i am confused. she is confused. we are both happy, yet both sad.
she wants to "date" me..
i wish i knew what i wanted to do. i know i want to be with her, but at the same time.. i don't. i know that i don't want her "dating" anyone else if she is dating me, but i also know that i can't ask for that.. because that would equate to exclusivity.. aka.. a relationship. she doesn't want a relationship... yet she wants me still.
she has been with 2 people since we broke up. i haven't slept with anyone since then. that bothers me as well. and i still love her, no matter how much i don't want to or how much i know it is bad for me.