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Oct. 8th, 2001 | 06:19 pm

i walk around in the shadows of the light thinking about day.. thinking about night. this world in which i have grown seems foreign... seems unknown. i sit here trying to figure out why it is that i speak when i dont really have anything to say... and as a result, why it is that i have nothing to say when there is so much on my mind.

to think about something that is just out of grasp. something that you cant quite get.. cant quite understand. why? striving for the knowledge? trying to learn?

sometimes i think my approach is just wrong. sometimes my attitude sucks. is there something wrong with that though? am i not allowed to have those days? who knows. i dont.

today i was thinking about something but i dont know what it was. there was something that desperately needed figured out.. determined.. but for the life of me i cant recall. shambles. my life.

why would one person talk to another for no reason at all? sometimes that happens... doesnt it? is that strange? to walk up to a complete stranger and just say hello.. for no reason, or with no provocation or agenda? am i weird for doing that? *sigh*

sometimes i think i am helpless to my own accord. i cannot control who i am, but i am what i make myself be. if that makes sense, please explain it to me.

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dreamland

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from: dreamland
date: Oct. 8th, 2001 07:14 pm (UTC)
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it's not strange at all. we all do it... as a form of reaching out. so we can touch ppl... so we can find ppl that will listen... saying "look at me, please. feel me please. listen to me please..." we all want love, we all want comfort, we all want to be heard and cared for and comforted... the way a mother would rock her baby and whisper words that everything is alright.

and we're always striving for that higher understanding of the environment around us, the ppl around us... of ourselves.

you may feel alone sweety, but you aren't. there are so many ppl that love you. we all go through our points of confusion trying to further discover our inner selves and what our life means to us and what we're trying to do and accomplish during it's time.

be who you are. that's the most beautiful, unique, special person that you are. yourself. though you may be confused of "who am i and what am i doing." you'll find yourself... or maybe you'll constantly be searching because in a lifetime you never stop learning and you never stop reaching for higher grounds...

*Hugs* I love you sweety. Take care of yourself and kisses to both you and hailey!! =) and diego!! miss you all. ((Though i never got to meet hailey! ack! =P))

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Tim

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from: visions
date: Oct. 8th, 2001 08:32 pm (UTC)
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you can come visit :-P

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from: banter
date: Oct. 9th, 2001 12:26 am (UTC)
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you are what you let yourself be, and that is a beautiful human being. do not allow yourself to think otherwise... ever. sometimes things just happen; like my good luck coming across someone such as yourself :) i count you as one of my few blessings, honestly. you are so genuine, so bright - you can make me smile through the deepest depression.

it's so easy for me to see why one person would be instantaneously attracted to/intrigued by you; i've experienced it firsthand.

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Tim

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from: visions
date: Oct. 9th, 2001 06:34 am (UTC)
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*speechless*

im just me. you silly girl.

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from: banter
date: Oct. 9th, 2001 08:47 am (UTC)
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that's exactly what i said...

exactly :)

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